Here I Sit

So here I sit, in my new apartment.

Here I sit, with an alarm set at an incredibly ungodly hour to wake me up for another day in my new job.

Here I sit, in anticipation of the next (and final) CPA Exam score.

Here I sit, alone with my thoughts and my heavy heart.

Here I sit, in tears for the many things I've lost in the past three months.

Here I sit, in hope that the next few months bring about a fresh start in my life.


Here I sit, tired. Exhausted. Weary, Broken.

Here I sit. Waiting for something to make me happy again, knowing that happiness lies within and that I need help out of this hole that I feel like I've fallen into.

Here I sit, thankful for the strong relationship with my family--who has been my rock this summer.

Here I sit, the past behind me, the possibilities in front on me but here I sit, unable to move in either direction---paralyzed by my inadequacies.

Here I sit, with music and the desire to dance.

Here I sit today. But tomorrow I will stand.

I will stand and put one foot in front of the other and dare to move from my seat.

I refuse to be an audience member of my own life.