Fighter

Sometimes I'd like to press pause,
appreciate my flaws,
embrace the day
paint color to the gray
recover
relax
cry.

That was this weekend for me.

Amazing how time numbs feeling
and empowers memories with evocation of the same.

That with which we fight so hard to hold,
is the most moving and edifying when released.
pride is one of those things,
grudges are another.

I write, knowing my heart is understood by my Creator.
Amen.

Quarters

100 years is a long time.

Jenni is 1/4 of the way there today. Congrats on that!

Happy Birthday to someone I hope to share many more quarters with.

The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever--do not abandon the words of your hands. --Psalm 138:8

Amen and Amen.

may this always be evident in my life and the choices I make.

happy valentine's day.

Danielle

Some friendships need no explaination.

Wanted: Minty Goodness

Confession: I'm an addict.

Every year, I look forward to this:

I'm pretty sure in Heaven they'll serve Thin Mints.

This is me last year on a cold, rainy, mid-February day....but look at that smile.

Today I got word that there was a girl selling them, but I didn't make it in time. So to all your scouts out there...I'm on the lookout. Nothing makes my day better than spending money on over-priced fattening snacks. I've made it my mission to be the proud owner of one box of delicious thin mints by the end of the weekend.

Happy Valentines Day to me.

Clouded Vision

Rain, rain go away.

I have enough pain today.

Rain drops and tear drops roll down my cheek.

Small reminders of the blessings I don't reap.

Oh how I wish the sun would shine.

To turn back time. To press rewind.

I can't. So I look for easement of the mind.

They call me crazy, think I'm insane.

Why waste words on them in this refrain?

For the crazy ones are those who dare.

To try, and to fail, and to cease to care.

Don't mock, don't laugh at those who dream.

Things aren't always as they seem.

Sprouts

The teens at the Boys and Girls Club are in the process of creating a garden in memory of their friend who was tragically killed in a car accident last year.

We just planted the seeds last week, but today I got to show some of the younger kids at the B&GC what the older ones were working on and to look at the sprouts that had already popped up.

They are a rambunctious group so I explained that they had to be "chill" as to not disturb the plants who were working so hard to grow. I told them that if they sent love to the plants they would grow faster.

I was in the midst of looking around to make sure I still had everyone, when I saw a girl with a pot in her hand whispering "I love you. I love you. I love you. Please grow. I love you."


Can you say Kaylyn heartbreaking almost tears of over-emotional surge moment? The absolute highlight of my day. Bar none.

Awakening

A Tweet from David Platt this morning:

'6,000 people groups unable to worship Christ this morning because they've never heard the gospel; may our worship drive us to go to them.

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For You and You alone,

Awake my Soul, Awake my Soul and sing.

For the world You love,

Your Will be done, let Your Will be done in me.

-Awakening, Chris Tomlin

Worth a 1000.

Quick to listen, slow to speak.

I work at a math lab 3 nights a week. A few weeks ago, I was witness to a pretty intense argument that left me awkwardly silent with the girl that works near me in the lab. I've been meaning to talk to her, but haven't had the chance.

Tonight she came over and apologized for what happened, which sparked a pretty awesome conversation. It's funny how random people begin talking about some of their deepest pains and because you're just listening, they go on.

I'm praying for my new lab friend and her grandfather who doesn't know who she is right now after several recent strokes.

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Tonight I also got a text message from a girl who helped this weekend with the Hope Event. She hasn't met any of us before, nor has she been involved with the organization. She texted me asking about Vespers tomorrow and thanking me for how welcoming everyone was.

She told me that she's going through a difficult time right now and more than ever needs community. She asked me to pray for her. I literally don't know her last name. I'm praying for Nicole, and for a possible new friendship.

I am humbled tonight, that the Lord would choose to use me as a listener, and not a talker.

bee tea dubs, I wonder how much pain surrounds me that I am immune to because I'm too busy talking to hear my own voice.

Talk Less, Say More.

I am the world's worst at creating the longest, most drawn out blogs. Therefore, I have decided that for the Month of February I will commit to talk less, and say more. Maybe, it'll overflow into my real world dialogue as well. I've always wanted to be one of those people who know exactly when to speak and when to remain silent.