Cry

-it's something I've never had a problem doing, and something I do quite often.

-but lately have not been able to do--mostly because I've been empty and numb

-so, tonight, for the first time in 3 plus weeks I cried.

and this is why:

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have mercy on me, O God.

according to your unfailing love.

according to your great compassion.

blot out my transgressions.

wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.

for i know my transgressions and my sin is always before me

against you, you only, have i sinned and done what is evil in your sight

so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge

surely i was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me

surely you desire truth in the inner parts

you teach me wisdom in the inmost place

cleanse me with hyssop, and i will be clean

wash me, and i will be whiter than snow

let me hear gladness;

let the bones you have crushed rejoice

hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity

create in me a pure heart, O God,

and renew a steadfast spirit within me

do not cast me from your presence

or take your Holy Spirit from me

Restore to me the joy of your salvation

and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me

then i will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will turn back to you

save me from bloodguilt, O God, the God who saves me,

and my tongue will sing of your righteousness

O Lord, open my lips and my mouth will declare your praise

you do not delight in sacrifice, or i would bring it;

you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings

the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;

a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

Psalm 51

Bee tea dubs. . .this is not tears, this is my CRY