Monday, March 14, 2011

Richmond or Bust

It's been an amazing week. I don't know how I could fit everything I want to reflect on in one blog, but I'll try to keep it short and sweet, and if I fail at that I'll break it up into some parts.


This past week, if you're wondering what's been so amazing, I've been in Richmond, VA on our annual spring break mission trip. We spent half the week working with urban ministries in the city, and the last half working at a camp 2 hours away that houses underprivileged students during the summer.


We left last Sunday [6:45am], and I had my first experience driving a 12 passenger van. I started driving in Jacksonville, and ended up driving until 6pm that night--through one of the worst storms I've ever had to drive through. It started hailing at one point, and lightning was striking down in the fields beside the interstate...quite a scary experience. I handled the stress by singing and creating conversation, but Margie [my driving partner of 3 years, the ex-director of BCM, and one of my cool wise friends/mentors] decided the rain was getting too loud and that she was going to yell back at it. Love her.


We finally arrived at the church that night around 8:30 and unloaded, made our palates and eventually fell asleep. The next morning began our first day at the sites. We were split up into 3 or 4 groups and we all went to separate sites during the afternoon. My first site was a private school in the midst of the Richmond projects. The school just started 2 years ago and has 30 students enrolled...these students are amongst the poorest, most challenged behaviorally, and dealing with the most baggage at home. I was amazed at the discipline, curriculum and love at the school.


I got to go to class for the first two days with the 6th grade girls class, and aside from falling asleep in science class, it was an awesome opportunity. I got to read with them, and help with school work and also got to run a mini basketball clinic during recess...they don't have anyone in their lives that will teach them sports. I was sad that the experience wasn't more long term--as I felt we were just beginning to build up relationships. Seeing the teachers pray for and with their students was really moving, and I am so happy to have had the experience for whatever time period.


In the afternoon the first day I was able to help run an after-school program for more intercity, underprivileged kids. This group was much younger, and as we were walking to the playground down the road, they latched their tiny hands into mine and looked up and gave the most sincere smile. now, I know I give them a really hard time, and I fight so hard to deny this...but I love children. These tiny humans stole my heart in about 5 minutes and there wasn't really anything I could do to resist.


to be in the situations they are in, to have to live in the conditions they do daily, and to still have the capacity to love whole-heartedly, to still be able to laugh, play, hug, and smile taught me so much. the innocence and trust of tiny humans speaks volumes to what Christ wants from us as His children. I'm not sure what I did to minister to those tiny humans, but they did a whole lot of ministering to me.


Some of the other sites we went to was a program called Boaz and Ruth, which was a job/life-training facility for ex-offenders. One of the classes they take is called "The Lies We're Told" where they discuss lies people have told them, like "you're not good enough, you're stupid, you'll never change, no one loves you." What a powerful ministry. I went to Caritas one afternoon, which is a program for people experiencing homelessness. They do job training, have a warehouse of used clothes, furniture, etc where their clients can shop with points assigned based on need. They network to find jobs for the clients and also provide jobs on the site itself. We painted furniture for the warehouse, and sorted used wood that will be used to make furniture for the warehouse.


Other students painted a church's gym. The church is one of the main financial supporters of the camp we worked at later in the week, so it was nice to give back to a group of people who give so much to students in Richmond. There were a couple of other afterschool programs that we ran too.


Wednesday was originally going to be a free day morning to site see in Richmond, and then a half travel day to the camp two hours away. However, flood warnings all over and crazy weather delayed us a little. We got to sleep in a little later, and all walked a historic part of Richmond. I got to eat at a famous burgers and fries place that was *so* good. it was also good to continue creating community amongst the students that were with us, as I hadn't even met a couple of the students that were with us before the trip.


That night we attended the church's Ash Wednesday service, which was something different for me. It was a great reminder that shortly after Jesus says follow me he dies...and in the same way we must die to ourselves. "You are dust and to dust you will return." It's also good to be stretched and challenged and uncomfortable...as faith should constantly be alive in those ways.


I should mention that every night at the church our group played Sardines (one person hides, everyone else searches for them)....*so* great. We even had people who weren't playing but instead hiding throughout the church scaring people to death. It was so much fun and a love how the Lord is the Lord of laughter and fun--even in silly kids games.


The next morning we woke up and drove to camp--more rain, more wind, and we found that one of our tires was flat. So the trip took longer than expected and we didn't arrive until mid afternoon. I was really proud of our group for all choosing to work that evening when given the choice to wait and just work the next day. We all knew what a great thing the camp was doing and wanted to be apart of that. We painted one of the lodges that evening...and I must say that I think the fumes got to us...I'm sure if you had walked by and heard about 25 college students belting Disney jams and then 99 bottles of coke on the wall to a ghetto beat you'd have thought so too.


The next morning the temperature was in the 20s, but we all put on our hardcore faces and split up into work groups. We finished painting the lodge, a group painted the floor of the kitchen in the dining hall, a group designed and created a mini golf course, and a group designed and built a Frisbee golf course, all in about 7 hours. We left at around 5pm for our 5 hour drive to Charlotte, NC to spend the night at a church before finishing the drive the next morning.

The drive back was about 20 hours in total after weather and traffic and stopping reared their ugly heads. But it was one of my most favorite times because it provided the opportunity for wonderful conversation. Margie and I as well as two of our freshmen, Marya and Ian had awesome conversation on things like loss & letting go, friendship, the Church and its future, serving, selflessness, the student ministry at Stetson and it's future, theology, love, perception and personality types. It was awesome. I learned a lot and loved getting to hear everyone's thoughts. No music, or car games, or hours where I was bored to tears. Just raw conversation.

We got back safe and sound and completely different than we had left. The transformation of the group every year is my favorite part. There is something special about doing life and ministry together--I learned that at camp this year, and the same things I loved about camp are the same things I loved about this week.

Speaking of camp, there seems to always be a connection everywhere I go. The first day as we were unpacking things I was wearing my Fuge sweatpants [great travel wear] and a girl that I had just met noticed them, and asked if I went to Fuge. I told her I was a bible study leader at Carson Newman Centerfuge and then she got really excited because she said she was a camper there this year. I got really excited and had a little freak-out fest as I asked her to describe her bible study leader. 30 seconds later I knew she was mistaken as she was describing someone who wasn't on our staff....she went to Ridgecrest. but it was so exciting to talk to her, because she wants to work M-Fuge in a couple of summers and I am always looking for an outlet to talk camp. We ended up being prayer partners too, so I got to learn a lot about Carly.

I've been praying for community here, and this week went a long way to forming a great one. There are so many stories I want to share, and things I learned, and funny things too...but I've already broken my promise of making this short.

I'll post some pictures later and more thoughts.


Friday, March 4, 2011

Just that kind of day.

Today has been swell. Don't know why, but that word just seems to fit it. Woke up, and decided that even though I was tired, I should get up..and surprisingly I did before I drifted back off into sleep. The shower really woke me up and I wore my yellow sunshine day shirt (ironic, as it has been stormy all day today) and got ready to face the outside world.

Took my goal/to do list half expecting to not cross anything off and headed out. Made a stop by free pancakes and got a delicious (for some reason that spelling just escpaed my brain and I orginally went with 'delish'..and then completely blanked..should it end with -us, -ish, -es..what is happening. PTL for spellcheck. I'd never make it in this world.) banana, chocolate, peanut butter chip pancake before heading to meet a friend to work on a project.

Database design really isn't my thing, and figuring out coding in SQL was a little bit time consuming but I felt special when I started understanding things and it reminded me how much I love to learn new things. Afterwards I stayed in the empty lab to finish up on some other projects and applications.

The lab as well as the campus in general is completely deserted. Today started spring break, as as the day went on I saw fewer and fewer cars, people, movement in general around here. It's sort of fun, in the 'I Am Legend' kind of way. I enjoyed peace and quiet and my choice of computers in the lab, enjoyed being soooo productive with little distraction and moved my car to a premiere parking spot. If you ignore the fact that I just compared it to a mass extermination of humans, I think you'll understand why I enjoyed my free time.

And these extreme circumstances also call for serious people bonding, to us few survivors that are still on campus. My friend Claire came over and sat with me in the empty business school building doing homework before she, Duncan, and I went to Chic-Fil-A for Free Fryday! (how clever of them). Nothing tops off a mass exodus like a wonderful run in with my favorite blessed food, Chic Fil A.

While enjoying our wonderful Chicken Filet, we had great discussion on facebook, technology in general, theology, revelation and the end of the world, politics, people, and embarassing stories. Our lunch went long if you hadn't guessed. It was fun. even though those topics sound a little overwhelming. Nothing calls for deep discussion than a million little humans and their families running around with greasy hands and free waffle fries.

Nothing too special, but for some reason I woke up with a go-getter's attitude and it has energized me to the max. I've marked some things off my list with a focus I almost forgot was possible, had great conversation with friends, and just enjoyed the day and what it had to offer. it's like someone slipped some aderall in my water last night. maybe that was inappropriate ending to the blog. sorry for any offenses.


bee tea dubs, i hope you've enjoyed my snarky, sarcastic tone....i'm just in a fun mood if you can't tell....I'm excited for the spring break mission trip in Richmond, Virginia..nothing sarcastic about that.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Flash Mob

A few weeks ago my roommate and I were involved in a flash mob at the Daytona 500 (I know, one of the most embarrassing events to say that I, the ultimate anti-redneck, attended.)

Anyway, being a part of a flash mob has been a bucket listed goal ever since I saw the one on Modern Family and then the other ones on Youtube.

It was a great experience, and I'm still really excited about having been apart of it. Here's the final cut of the performance.

Pay extra attention at 2:10 and 3:46, because you may see someone you recognize.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Torn into Pieces

Last night my friend, Claire, and I had an impromptu worship jam session. It was much needed and the Lord blessed me through the music (even with my less than amateur guitar skills and allergic vocals--Claire did good work for both of us). She introduced me to this song, and today it has stayed with me. (Of course it has--it's Shane and Shane) Anyway, it seems suffering has been a hot topic in small groups, and discussion with friends..and this song is beautiful Truth.

Today I'm thankful for my friend Claire for meeting me at the crazy late hour last night, and for scripture in song.

hosea

by shane barnard


come let us return
He has torn us into pieces
He has injured us
come let us return to the Lord
He will heal us
He will bandage our wounds
in just a short time He'll restore us
in just a short time He'll restore His church
so we might live
we might live in His presence
in His presence

oh that we might know the Lord
oh that we might know the Lord
oh that we might know the Lord
let us press on to know Him
let us press hard into Him
then as surely as the coming of the dawn
He will respond


bee tea dubs...also see Hosea 6

Monday, February 28, 2011

Fighter

Sometimes I'd like to press pause,
appreciate my flaws,
embrace the day
paint color to the gray
recover
relax
cry.


That was this weekend for me.


Amazing how time numbs feeling
and empowers memories with evocation of the same.


That with which we fight so hard to hold,
is the most moving and edifying when released.
pride is one of those things,
grudges are another.


I write, knowing my heart is understood by my Creator.
Amen.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Quarters

100 years is a long time.

Jenni is 1/4 of the way there today. Congrats on that!



Happy Birthday to someone I hope to share many more quarters with.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord, endures forever--do not abandon the words of your hands. --Psalm 138:8
Amen and Amen.